Thursday, January 31, 2008
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
I thought I could trust you, now I can't. I thought I could confide in you, for now I don't think I will. I thought I could share lots of plans, hopes and aspiration with you, now I can only share my disappointment.
Don't get me wrong... I'm not boiling nor am I angry. Yes, I am disappointed... And extremely if I might add.
If there's one thing I must say, as a parting shot, "Where's the trust my friend? Where's the trust?"
If you ever stumble upon this blog of mine, know that this song right here describes exactly the way I'm feeling...
GRAVITY
Gravity
Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down
Oh I'll never know
What makes this man
With all the love
That his heart can stand
Dream of ways
To throw it all away
Oh Gravity
Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down
Oh twice as much
Ain’t twice as good
And can't sustain
Like one half could
It's wanting more
It's gonna send me to my knees
Oh twice as much
Ain’t twice as good
And can't sustain
Like one half could
It's wanting more
It's gonna send me to my knees
Oh gravity
Stay the hell away from me
Oh gravity
Has taken better men than me
Now how can that be?
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where keep me where the light is
My friend... Thank you
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Wednesday, December 19, 2007
While nearly every blog I've read are posts about how 2007 has been for them, I'm gonna post about 2008!
First, wanna start off with a song:
Amazed
by Lincoln Brewster
You dance over me,
While I am unaware.
You sing all around,
But I never hear the sound.
Lord I'm amazed by You,
Lord I'm amazed by You,
Lord I'm amazed by You,
How You love me.
You paint the morning sky,
With miracles in mind.
My hope will always stand,
For You hold me in Your hand,
How wide,
How deep,
How great,
Is Your Love for me.
I believe and claim in faith that 2008 is gonna be a year where God's greatness and majesty is shown for everyone to see. I've experienced such intense love from God last year and that has kept me wanting more. Sure, I still do struggles with some really big issues myself, I still do fall into temptation now and again... I believe that all these isn't gonna me away from my Lord. My one fear is that I take this mercy and love for granted.
Started out 2008 with leading worship at our first prayer meet. It was one of those times where I came to practice really unsure of what's going on in me. All I knew a message to return to innocence. The Cross. Kinda inspired by Iggy's session at YI, I just felt that the year's journey should start at the foot of the cross. That what I did.
I made a few resolutions for this year. I've made them before in the past; never really kept to them. I hope this time God gives me enough strength and determination to see it through. The feeling of breaking a resolution sure is demoralising.
Anyway, here are my resolutions:
1. KEEP TO MY RESOLUTIONS
2. READ THE BIBLE COVER TO COVER
3. COME OUT VICTORIOUS IN MY STRUGGLES
4. LOSE WEIGHT (Don't laugh guys... haha!)
5. FORGE NEW FRIENDSHIPS
6. MEND OLD RELATIONSHIPS
7. KEEP A HEALTHY PRAYER & STUDY SCHEDULE
8. STICK TO THE JOB WHEN I FIND ONE
9. ACTUALLY SAVE CASH... (Ok... This will start after I get that much coveted J45, JM Strat, OMJM, Tube Amp...)
10. PRACTICE REGULARLY ON MY INSTRUMENTS
I guess these are 10 biggest decisions I've made. Do pray that I don't fall along the way and if I do, I find the strength to pull through the obstacles.
I wanna see myself as a new creation at the end of 2008. Someone bursting with a deep passion for God, someone who is able to be a role model to everyone who is anyone. Someone who can fulfill what's expected of a brother and friend.
God help me. Amen.
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Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Was just going through some really old songs in my mp3. Came across one that hit me really hard. Anyone here remembers Daniel Chan, Chen Xiao Dong?
A nostalgic moment for me there... Used to listen to him a lot back in '97 when I was sec 3. Brings back some fond memories too.
And that's what I'm feeling right now. The song is also on my stickam... It's the only chinese song there.
Ain't gonna post what exactly I feel here? I guess there are things that are best left unrevealed..
Gonna leave you with the lyrics to the song... If you understand it, well, congrats!这种感觉从来不曾有 左右每天思绪每一次呼吸
Yeah... That's it for this post
心被占据 却苦无医
是你让我着了迷
给了甜蜜又保持距离 而你潇洒来去玩爱情游戏
我一天天失去勇气 偏偏难了难忘记
单单为你心有独钟 因为爱过才知情多浓
浓得发痛在心中 痛全是感动 我是真的真的与众不同
真正为你心有独钟 因为有你世界变不同
笑我太傻太懵懂 或爱得太重 只为相信我自己 能永远对你的心 独钟
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Thanks Cheryl for blogging about SKS Books! For those who wanna know more, please visit http://www.sksbooks.com/
I strongly recommend this place for all ministry resources!
If you wanna go, please call me along!!!!
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Woke up this morning, feeling refreshed, like waking up to a brand new day... Gonna start today with a song... Okay! It's a little old but hey who cares right?
Thanks and praises to God for this new day!
All Things New
by Steven Curtis Chapman
You spoke and made the sunrise, to light up the very first day
You breathed across the water, and started the very first wave
It was You
You introduced Your glory, to every living creature on earth
And they started singing, the first song to ever be heard
They sang for You
You make all things new
You make all things new
Then the world was broken, fallen and battered and scarred
You took the hopeless, the life, wasted, ruined and marred
And made it new
You make all things new
You make all things new
You redeem and You transform
You renew and You restore
You make all things new
You make all things new
And forever we will watch and worship You
You turn winter into spring
You take every living thing
And You breathe Your breath of life into it over and over again
You made the sunrise, day after day after day
But there's a morning coming, when old things will all pass away
And everyone will see
You make all things new
You make all things new
Come redeem and come transform
Come renew and come restore
You make all things new
You make all things new
And forever we will watch and worship You
Now and forever You are making all things new
You're making all things new
Hallelujah...
And another song of praise...
Everlasting God
by Brenton Brown
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary
You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary
You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles
Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary
You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles
Praise You God!
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Praise Him, all His angels, Praise Him, sun and moon, Praise Him, you highest heavens Let them praise the name of the Lord, He set them in place for ever and ever; Praise the Lord from the earth, Lightning and hail, snow and clouds, You mountains and all hills, Wild animals and all cattle, Kings of the earth and all nations, Young men and maidens, Let them praise the name of the Lord, He has raised up for His people a horn, Monday, September 10, 2007
Before I start my long awaited post, wanna share a song with everyone!
Everything Glorious
by David Crowder Band
The day is brighter here with You
The night is lighter than its hue
Would lead me to believe
Which leads me to believe
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
What does that make me?
My eyes are small but they have seen
the beauty of enormous things
Which leads me to believe
there's light enough to see that
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
From glory to glory
You are glorious You are glorious
From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious
Which leads me to believe
why I can believe that
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
From glory to glory From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious.
You are glorious. You are glorious.
This post is gonna be one with a testimony for God and his wondrous, glorious deeds. It's gonna be one filled with song. Psalms 148 says
Praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord from the heavens,
Praise Him in the heights above.
Praise Him, all His heavenly hosts.
Praise Him, all you shining stars.
And you waters above the skies.
For He commanded and they were created.
He gave a decree that will never pass away.
You great sea creatures and all ocean depths,
Stormy winds that do His bidding,
Fruit trees and all cedars,
Small creatures and flying birds,
You princes and all rulers on earth,
Old men and children.
For His name alone is exalted;
His splendor is above the earth and the heavens.
The praise of all His saints,
Of Israel, the people close to His heart.
Praise the Lord.
It has been a year since I've lifted that prayer to Him. Now looking around, I see that prayer fulfilled before my very eyes.
This entry is also to affirm some close friends of mine.
Stefan - What started out as an invitation to guest drum for a prayer meet has seen this brother of mine experiencing God in a very real way. It's been over a year since he's started with us, and I see God, working very alive in him. From our days in YLM till being in WT, God has certainly blessed me with this brother and I believe that God has blessed him abundantly! Thank God for you bro!
Daisy - It all began over a spur of the moment invitation over a steamboat dinner. Somehow during the meal, I just had the prompting to invite her to prayer meet. Since then, this sister has never left. It is again, God's handiwork that she's experienced Him at All Things New and now serving very faithfully in Log Team. I do get encouraged by her when we share our thoughts about ministry and service.
Leonard - This brother came for All Things New... Just like that! I vaguely remembered that either Stefan or me did briefly talk to him about YI, then the next thing we knew, he showed up! And it has right immediately after passing out parade! Seeing him rushing into the hall, all fired up and ready to experience God was and still is a very deep affirmation for me. An affirmation that comes directly from God. This affirmation says,"Son, believe Me that there is nothing I cannot do. You asked, I answered. You wanted, I gave. This is My action of love for all of you." Bro, I pray that God places in you the gifts to lead YLM. Bring that fire of revival to our ministry!
Cassandra - I had this prompting to bring her to our prayer meets in hope that one day she'll play for us. I started sharing with her guitar techniques since 2 years ago. And she also appeared in my mind as I prayed. I knew God wanted to bring Him to her, so that was what I did. Now, it's His blessing that I'm playing alongside her in worship of Him. My prayer right now is that God's favour continues to shine on you as you discover and experience Him in playing that instrument He gifted you with.
Cheryl - The absolute closest sister of mine! We had 2 major fights and quarrels and cold wars. I have to admit that as I prayed during the leaders' retreat, she was the first one to appear in my mind. And that was after we had our 2nd fight. After that I never spoke to her until a brief moment in May this year. Then it was another period of no contact until 2 weeks ago. Somehow or another, I had this very strong prompting in me to call her out for a catch up cum supper session. It was so strong that I knew I had to phone her instead of just leaving a message. That night, I shared with her what God has placed in my heart. I also shared with her how my faith journey has been. She's also the first that I shared the passage from which my mission is formed. Mark 4:21-22 "He said to them, "Do you bring in a lamp to put it under a bowl or a bed? Instead, don't you put it on its stand? For whatever is hidden is meant to be disclosed, and whatever is concealed is meant to be brought out into the open." I shared with her that my 2 years at Amplify has changed me a great deal. Prayer meets is like the lamp, and this is THE lamp that I wanna show to as many people I can! And I can't describe how wondrous God is... She actually came for a prayer meet and most of all, signed for YISS: Everlasting God! And to put the icing on the cake, she is blessed with a position in her university after it somewhat seemed like a difficult application! This came immediately after signing for YI! If you want to Do visit http://plays-pretty.blogspot.com to see her testimony on an Indescribable God. My prayer right now is that she has forgiven whatever hurt I caused her and willing to look past those errors and journey with me to know God together. Thank you sis and most of all thank God for you!
Matthew / Mel - My 2 buddies. It is affirming to see them coming for prayer meet, to share the experience of something that caused a tremendous change in me. We may not have met up or caught up as much and as often, but I know that deep down, God has build and reinforced a bond so strong that nothing can come in between. I pray that God presents an abundance of opportunities so that we can share again in something that really matters to us; something that has brought great joy to us!
CTK-ians - My prayer is still the same. I know that one day, our Glorious God is going to just show Himself in our midst. I can already see a whole generation of CTK-ians, singing His praises so loudly that our voice storm the heavens. I can see the unity of ourselves with everyone else, singing our new song, dancing in the freedom, shouting in victory, hands raised in surrender and adoration and worship to a God who's everlasting! That'll be the day where we'll show and tell the world that we're a Jesus Generation!
I hope that I've not watered down the indescribable deeds of God in this post!
Brothers and sisters, allow me to pray for you. If you reading this, do join me in prayer for everyone mentioned above.
"For where two or three are gathered in My name, there am I with them." Matt 18-20
God, You're just so awesome. When I gaze up into Your heavens with all my unworthiness, I know that You're gazing down on this sinful servant, someone who struggles with sins and obstacles. I may never know why I deserve this amazing grace, but seeing my burdens and struggles, I know that this grace is what's keeping me going. And I know that through You, You have broken everything that binds me from You. You have broken my very walls of Jericho. Lord, Your words says that anyone who places trust in You will run and not go weary, and in turn be raised on wings of eagles. I place myself into the Potter's hands. I, too, place the youths of CTK in Your hands. Take us by our frail hands Lord, and lift us high. High above all else so that we can soar freely in the freedom You've won for us. Draw near to us as we draw near to You. Saturate our lives so that when we enter the place You've prepared for us, the place where we join the biggest praise and worship session ever, we may only sing of the glorious deeds that You've done through us; that we have lived once, in our human world as a generation filled with passion fueled by a hearting beating out of love for You. This I pray. AMEN!
Let us ask this in faith that God will fulfill everything we've asked for. For Jesus said, "And whatever you ask in My name, I will do it, so that the Father will be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything of Me in My name, I will do it." John 14:13-14
Amazing Grace
by Chris Tomlin
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbade to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine
All The Heavens
by Hillsongs
Holy holy are You Lord
The whole earth is filled with Your glory
Let the nations rise to give
Honour and praise to Your name
Let Your face shine on us
And the world will know You live
All the heavens shout Your praise
Beautiful is our God
The universe will sing
Hallelujah to You our King
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Tuesday, June 05, 2007
God commanded Evan Baxter, former anchorman and the congressman to build an ARK. Through many instances of defiance, he did it. Remember Jonah?
Well, Point Number 1:
IF GOD CALLS YOU SOMETHING, THERE'S NO WAY TO RUN AWAY FROM IT.
It is true! And most of the time I believe that following God's instructions and directions always takes us on the road less traveled. Remember Jesus told the rich man about how to be a disciple? Bible ref: Mark 10:21 "Go sell what you have, and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; then come, follow me." (NAB) And again in Mark 8:34 "He summoned the crowd with His disciples and said to them, "Whoever wishes to come after me must deny himself, take up his cross and follow Me." (NAB)
That's what happened to Evan. (Notice: Spoilers alert!) Evan got suspended from his job, got hit by a gift of beard and robes, lost his family, lost everything and what's more faced hindrance from the local authorities. At the end of the day, he held on in faith and finished it. Jonah went to preach Nineveh in the end right?
Point Number 2: GOD PROVIDES!
God provides Evan with ALL the materials needed for the job! Amen! Abraham was order to offer Issac to God, but in the end God showed mercy and provided him with a sheep instead. Genesis 22:14. This is God's promise of providing us in our time of need. If only we do not hold back from offering Him all of ourselves. God provided the gopher wood, tools and all. Evan asked for a mechanical lift, God gave it to him. Evan asked for additional help, God provided the "manpower" in the form of the entire animal kingdom. Matt 7:7-8 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened onto you. For everyone who asks, receives; and the one who seeks, finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened."
Jesus promises us that whatever we ask in faith and belief in Him He will do it. John 14:13-14 "And whatever you ask in My name, I will do it, so that the Father will be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything of Me in My name, I will do it."
Just a little disclaimer though. In Evan Almighty, Evan's wife asked for a more closely knitted family. Later on in the movie she meets God at a diner. She was pouring out her life to Him when He responded, "Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"
Guess we've gotta be mindful of what we pray for. Mindful in the sense that we need to identify such opportunities when they arrive. Opportunities for us to exercise that very thing we've been praying for. For the longest time I've been praying for a stronger resistance to temptation. Now that I look back, I realise that God has provided me with lots of opportunities to exercise it. The only thing I've done is wave them goodbye. Sigh eh?
Point Number 3: Hold on in faith!
Back to Abraham... Abraham could have easily defied God's demand of offering Issac but the miracle here is that Abraham held on to his faith in God till the very last moment, then God provided him a substitute. Evan held on with God's promise of a flood sooo much that he did in a way turn cynical. Even on the appointed date, a drizzle came, but no flood. Then when hope seemed bleak, the flood came. What faith! The bible's number 1 human resource manager, Moses also faced the same thing in the courts of Pharaoh. To be able to believe that his people will actually be set free calls for a huge amount of faith in God. I guess the biggest example of holding in faith is shown through Jesus. He believed that through Him, sin and death will be conquered that He chose to "drink the cup that the Father has given Him." John 18:11
Jesus did want the cup of suffering to pass from Him. Matt 26:39 "And going on a little further, He fell on His face and prayed. "My Father," He said, "If it is possible, let this cup pass Me by. Nevertheless let if be as You, not I, would have it." Jesus held on in faith to His Father's will that at the end of the entire ordeal, He was glorified and now seated at His Father's right hand.
Friends, let us keep in mind these 3 points as we live daily only to give glory to God! Amen!
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Labels: Captivate Us Sunday, May 27, 2007
I'd like to share with everyone a song that has administered to me and brought me through this period of time where I faced some problems close to the heart
Captivate Us
by watermark
Your face is beautiful
And Your eyes are like the stars
Your gentle hands have healing
There inside the scars
Your loving arms they draw me near
And Your smile it brings me peace
Draw me closer oh my Lord
Draw me closer Lord to Thee
Captivate us Lord Jesus set our eyes on You
Devastate us with your presence falling down
And rushing river draw us nearer
Holy fountain consume us with You
Captivate us Lord Jesus with You
Your voice is powerful
And Your words are radiant bright
In Your breath and shadow
I will come close and abide
You whisper love and life divine
And Your fellowship is free
Draw us closer oh my Lord
Draw me closer Lord to thee
Captivate us Lord Jesus set our eyes on You
Devastate us with Your presence falling down
And rushing river draw us nearer
Holy fountain consume us with You
Captivate us Lord Jesus with You
And let everything be lost in the shadows
Of the light of your face
And let every chain be broken from me
As I'm bound in Your grace
For Your yoke is easy Your burden is light
You're full of wisdom power and might
And every eye will see You
And captivate captivate us Lord Jesus with You
Captivate us ah ah
Lydia, thanks for introducing this song to me. Thanks God for you! A sincere thanks to the many many friends who have supported me during this time. Without you, I wouldn't have stood my ground. I thank and praise God for His gift of you guys and gals in my life.
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It's been a long time since I totally submitted myself to the Lordship of Jesus in my life. In fact, looking back on the many months, I only see myself gaining instant "fixes" in my spiritual journey just because I have to. (i.e Times like when I'm needed to administer to people through worship or my playing)
Just reflecting on Fr William Goh's homily at the 4th Saturday/Pentecostal Mass. His words gave a very clear perspective on where I stand in my own worship. His words struck a very raw nerve. "How do you proclaim that Jesus is Lord if you don't read the bibile? If you don't pray regularly?"
I believe that if 2 people (who have never corresponded with each other) were to tell me a same message within a day or 2's timespan, that message is one that requires my immediate attention.
On sunday, I was at St. Theresa's helping the publicity for YISS. As I was giving out the flyers at the entrance of the church, I chanced upon the confessional. I took a peek in... No one was inside, no priest either. A voice prompt me to make my peace with God that very day. I did.
Amidst the mess of things right now in my life, I'm once again reminded that the Almighty reigns. To love is to forgive, to forgive is to obey, to obey is to surrender. A total surrender into His arms isn't something that we can give at the spur of the moment. No, the journey isn't complete when we make that commitment. Everything comes full circle only when our lives become a tangible reflection of that commitment.
To err is human... I have many times proclaimed a total surrender, but in truth held back. I also believe many of us would have faced similar situations in our journey of life. Know that Jesus said in John 15: 5 "I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in Me with Me in him bears fruit in plenty; for cut off from Me, you can do nothing."
For this reason, we must be mindful at all times and focus on being righteous in God. The words of a popular worship song goes,"Though my world may fall, I'll never let You go."
God Himself never said that it was easy. Luke 9:23 "Then to all He said: "If anyone wants to be a follower of Mine, let him renouce himself and take up his cross everyday and follow Me." For those who watched The Passion of The Christ saw how difficult it was to carry that chunk of wood. It was so heavy that He fell 3 times. But know this, that at the end of that journey, He was raised above all and glorified by the Father. For it was at the end of that journey that all men are reconciled with God and He makes ALL THINGS NEW...
Amen.
Just wanna leave everyone with a song that administered to me last friday at prayer meet. A shout out of thanks to God for having chosen Grace to pick that song for her worship. And Worship Team, thank you... You guys are the greatest...
TO YOU
Here I stand,
Forever in Your mighty hand,
Living with Your promise written on my heart.
I am Yours,
Surrendered wholly to You.
You set me in Your family,
Calling me Your own
Now I,
I belong to You.
All I need,
Your spirit Your word Your truth.
Hear my cry,
My deep desire,
To know You more.
In Your name,
I will lift my hands,
To the King,
This anthem of praise I bring.
Heaven knows,
I long to love You,
With all I am,
I belong to You.
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